On a good track

It has been 3 days now and so far so good :)   I have not been limiting the amount I eat, but being very careful of WHAT I eat.  I have been eating lots of fruits and veggies, Veggie subway sandwhiches, drinking lots of water.  I have been stearing clear of candy and cakey carbs...my true loves! 
Sunday night I was laying in bed and having a hard time breathing.  Have I just gotten so fat that I am out of breath laying in bed!?  I dont want to feel like that again.  That was after my "last day of eating EVER".  Everytime I start a diet I have a last day...to eat and binge on whatever I want.  Problem is that I start so many diets that I have "last days" a couple times a month!  After that Sunday of binging I felt physically sick!  I could picture the lard around my heart as it is trying to beat.  No more LAST DAYS!

The pictures that got this fat girl rolling

I had a friend take these pictures of me.  I have gained so much weight, but with my clothes mostly growing with me...it was hard to see.  These pics say it all!  Nothing to hide!  These were taken 11/4/12. 

I start TODAY!

As of this date, I have only given this account to a few friends. If anyone was actually following it, they would think I am nuts! Every day I "start over" and "this is day ONE!...for real!". But REALLY this time, today starts the beggining of a healthier me! It has gotten ridiculous! Last summer (2011) I got down to 198. That was my lowest weight in a LONG time. As of the scale at the gym today...I am a freaking humongo mass of 251 pounds! WHAT?!? I keep starting diets, only to fail. I dont have any clothes that fit. I have out fatted my fat clothes! And I refuse to buy more fatter clothes. It just needs to stop!

With this blog, I am hoping to keep a track of my goals. Not entirely sure of what I will be doing. I will probally do a little of everything. As long as I am not eating like I did today, I should be good :)